Sorry

This my picture for Illustration Friday the theme is sorry. "Sorry" was drawn with a Faber-Castle 3-H pencil then inked over with my Gel Roller on a piece of multi-purpose copy paper, then cleaned up and colored in Photoshop. I struggled with this theme. At first I was just going to post a silly picture of a guy getting whacked with a bowling ball, but I decided to dig a little deeper.

On may 23, 1999 I married a woman I had been living with for six years. I was very much in love. Six weeks later, I came home and my wife said to me, "I made a mistake. I'm leaving." Then she was gone.

I was completely blindsided and went a little crazy. While under the spell of my craziness, I decided to get rid of everything and go driving around the country. One of the things I got rid of was my cat Zelda. I ended up giving her to the woman who had briefly been my mother-in-law.

Zelda was the first pet that was ever all mine. I was there when she was born and we were together for over ten years. She was the runt of the litter, with long hair, no tail and Siamese markings. Zelda was a bit of a scaredy cat, but she was also the most loving animal I'd ever been around. She had a penchant for sleeping under the covers on top of your belly and lying in the sun on her back. I miss her terribly.

God/dess knows I'm no saint. I've done a lot of stupid things and I'm sure I've hurt a lot of people, but the only thing I really feel sorry about is giving up my cat while in a delusional stupor. Thinking about it still makes me cry. In fact, I'm crying right now.

Anyhow, that's why this is my picture for Illustration Friday's sorry theme. Now, if you'll pardon me I'm going to go have a good cry. I'll try to catch up on comments later tonight.

Here's the only picture I have left of Zelda.

Do you ever have a good cry? Do you want to leave some love?